I am a little down this morning. A bit flat after the build up of a garden market stand yesterday to sell my own photographic greetings cards. Although I love photography my heart hasn’t really been in the selling and marketing of them. I covered my costs and made a little profit, although if my time involved with the preparatory work was included I would have made a big loss!
But really I am flat because I am doubting myself. I have so many ideas of little projects, subjects that I want to share, which initially I get very excited about but which I then dismiss thinking that no-one will want to join me in discovering them, asking myself who I am kidding, why I don’t just stop distracting myself and get a job…
As I have posted before, whatever I want to explore and share is what I need to do for myself. At the moment this is a very very basic self care package, a way of giving myself comfort and security. A base from which to orient myself, a diving board from which I can jump. But without it I can go nowhere because I don’t feel safe or nurtured or protected.
So this is where I am going to start. From where I am. And this is what I will share. My foray into looking after myself in an extremely simple way. Tiny baby steps that will involve falling down and getting up again. Being the toddler but also being the hand that metaphorically helps the toddler get back up, the two roles in one.
My first baby step to self care – a beautiful linen napkin and a simple vase of flowers
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